I had a “blue” day this weekend. I’m usually pretty happy… probably annoyingly. I don’t really worry too much about things, and my life is pretty awesome, so it’s not to hard to stay positive. But sometimes, all my worries hit me at once & I feel down. Yesterday was one of those days.
I can’t be the only one who wonders like this: How in the world do other people do it? I often find myself wondering:
*How much money do they make?
*How the heck did they buy that house?
*How do they have so much cool stuff?
*How do they afford daycare?
*or… How do they afford him/her to stay home with the kids?
*How do they afford kids in general?
*How did they get that job?
*How is their house always so clean?
*How come their lawn always looks amazing?
*They are younger than me!? How the…..
*Why does “everyone” have a smartphone but me?
*Didn’t they just get a new car 3 years ago?
*What do they make for dinner? I’m so sick of coming up with things to eat for dinner!
*How do they stay so thin?
*I want beautiful hair like that!!!
*How do they take the time to fill in the blank?
*Why am I 30 & still feel like I’m “just out of college” in life? Maybe I should start telling everyone I’m 25 instead? I could pass I think.
DRIVES ME CRAZY! (Am I driving you crazy too right now? Likely.)
I know the answer to all of these questions. I know I do. It’s about priorities. What one person thinks is very important another person doesn’t. But even though I might be concentrating on things that we think are the most important for us at this particular time, that doesn’t mean I don’t wish I could have those other things too. By concentrating on the most important right now can lead to other things I “want” to have to be pushed aside for “later” or “someday” or maybe not ever at all.
It’s not that I don’t want them, because I obviously do. I want a smartphone, yes I do. But, they are expensive, and at this point, I don’t NEED a smartphone, thus that money is better used for other things or for hanging out in our savings account waiting for the house we’ll eventually buy & the baby(s) we’ll eventually have. A smartphone is not a priority at the moment for me. Darn, I still want one though *pout face*.
I don’t work out as much as I used to. It’s not as much of a priority. Yea, I could be more super-buff & in shape… I would love that… but I’ve been concentrating on my 3 jobs lately, which doesn’t leave a whole lot of room for that. So am I super jealous of all the super-buff gals, yep. But I have to remind myself, totally my choice here.
Technically, I could have all of those things. I could. Well, maybe except the figuring out what to make for dinner part… although, if I wanted to spend tons of money on groceries & tons of time in the kitchen I could come up with a lot more options, so I guess I could have that too. There just isn’t enough time in a day for everything. There isn’t enough money in the world for everything. We are not the Jones’ & we don’t have to keep up with them either…
And I’m jealous. Ugh, I hate that. I hate feeling jealous. This happens to everyone though. I know I’m not alone. Maybe people I’m jealous of are jealous of me for something else. Likely. (Darn Facebook & your making everyone’s life look amazing!) I don’t think I have a problem being happy for others who have things that I want, which I’m thankful for. But that stinkin’ green-eyed monster always makes me wonder…
Ba. What does the Bible have to say about this? Um… a lot. And it’s not pretty.
“You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel. You do not have, because you do not ask. You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions” James 4:2-3
“For you are still of the flesh. For while there are jealousy and strife among you, are you not of the flesh and behaving only in a human way?” 1 Corinthians 3:3
“You shall not covet your neighbor’s house; you shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, or his male servant, or his female servant, or his ox, or his donkey, or anything that is your neighbor’s.” Exodis 20:17
True story. Really, I have a lot. I’m very blessed. Especially compared to so many needy others in this country & others. So many orphaned children. So many hungry. So silly of me to want MORE of what others have when I have so much. And yet it’s there. He is enough. He will not let me fall. I know I have & will always have everything that I need, but not everything I want, because I am human, & I will never have everything the world can offer, but I will always have everything He offers.
It is something I’m working on. Something I think will always be a battle. Some days are better than others. Some days I’m crazy thankful. Some days I’m crazy jealous.
I pray my thanks. I pray for my needs & wants if He wishes them for me. I pray for strength. I pray for contentment & patience. I pray for love to give & receive. Life’s too short for anything less 🙂